PERSONAL BLOGGY

FIRST NEW PERSONAL BLOG FOR BRYAN DARLING.

2008-09-14T02:39:00.000-07:00

YEP, THIS BLOG USED T BE MY SOME OLD BLOG. BUT NOW I CHANGED EVERYTHING INTO PERSONAL BLOG JUST FOR DARLING BRYAN. I WON'T SHOW YOU THIS UNTIL SOME SPECIAL OCCASION OR BLABLABLA. AND I GONNA BLOG EVERYTHING WITH CAPS(:

DARLING DARLING DARLING, I FE;T AWFULLY SWEEEEET WHEN I SAW YOUR FEATURED FRIEND ON FRIENDSTER. SERIOUSLY YOU MELT MY LITTLE HEART JUST BY VERY VERY SMALL MOVES. 05SEPT 2008 IS OUR FIRST WEEK ANNIVERSARY. SEEING YOUR SHORT MESSAGE.
- HAPPY ONE WEEK ANNIVERSARY BABY, I LOVE YOU FUCK DEEPLY.
I CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW I'M FEELING EXACTLY THAT MOMENT BECAUSE I'M FEELING LIKE YOU'RE FLYING ME IN THE SKY. BY THE VERY SHORT AND SWEET MESSAGE YOU MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU SO DEEP DEEP DEEPLY.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU. I KNOW IT MYSELF, ITS VERY DEEP TILL I GUESS NO ONE CAN EVENTUALLY HELP ME OUT. I KNOW EVERYONE IS SAYING AFTER THE SO CALLED ' HONEYMOON PERIOD ' EVERYONE WILL CHANGE. I KNOW I WON'T! BECAUSE I'M NOT THAT KIND OF JERK. ONCE I HAVE YOU. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU YOU YOU, NOTHING BUT YOU. BUT I'M AFRAID ONE DAY DARLING WILL LEAVE ME LIKE SOME OTHER EX I USED T HAVE. AND AND AND I'M EVEN MUCH MORE AFRAID THAT DARLING IS LEAVING SINGAPORE T MALAYSIA. EVERY TIME I THINK OF THIS IT MAKE MY HEART BREAK SERIOUSLY.

I LOVE AND WISH T SPEND EVERY OF MY MOMENT WITH YOU. WE SPEND ALMOST ALL THE WEEKEND TGETHER. I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU CHOOSEN ME OUT OF THE OTHERS FOUR. THOU THE WAY WE GOT TGTHER IS PRETTY MUCH UNROMANTIC BUT I DON'T CARE, AS LONG AS I CAN BE WITH YOU DARLING.

JUST CAME BACK HOME FROM YOUR HOUSE. WAS KINDA DISAPPOINTED AS I WENT HOME ALONE. YOU SAY IN THE MORNING THAT WE SUPPOSE T HAVE BREAKFAST TOGETHER AND GG AMK HUB T BUY SOME STUFFS. BUT I UNDERSTAND CAUSE YOU'RE VERY TIRED SO I ASKED YOU T SLEEP LONGER.
RECEIVED A CALL FROM YOU WHEN I'M ON THE TRAIN, HEARING THAT YOU'RE GOING ST, JAMES I KNOW THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT AND I TOTALLY TRUST YOU BUT I JUST DONT FEEL GOOD AND RESTLESS.
JUST GOT ANOTHER CALL FROM YOU SAYING ITS RAINING OVER AT AMK. SUPPOSE YOU'RE MEETING ME AT INTERCHANGE FOR DINNER BUT THE RAIN MAKE YOU DELATE AND BRAINO CALLING YOU ASK YOU T HAVE DINNER WITH THEM AT CHINATOWN. SERIOUSLY IM VERY VERY VERY DISAPPOINTED I GUESS YOU HEARD ME THRU THE PHONE BUT IM PRETENDING ASKING YOU T GO INSTEAD OF MEETING ME BECAUSE I WANT DARLING T BE HAPPY AND HAVE FREEDOM BUT I JUST FEEL THE HEAVYNESS ): NOW IDK IF YOU'RE STILL MEETING ME FOR DINNER OR WHAT? IDK IF YOU CAN STAY OVER AT MY PLACE TONIGHT TOO AS MY GRANDMA IS HOME.
I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU ALOT. IT BROKE MY HEART EVERYTIME I CAN'T SEE OR MEET YOU WHEN WE PLANNED AND SUPPOSE T MEET OUT. THERE WILL BE THINGS T RUIN THE PLAN. TSK.

I LOVE YOU, BD.

Days wo love.

2008-07-03T00:56:00.000-07:00

St.James with DeniseBaobei, MeiQi, Ryan and Egbert on Sunday was so fun! :D Anw, its gonna be last week of clubbing, school reopen next week): Before going St.James watched Sex and the city with Cherry and i leave earlier, sorry=/
Monday, went t submit time sheet t the Singtel thingy for our paid then meet up with Kenny and Nicholas, we went shoppinggggg! At night went t our fav place, Starbuck t bitch and chitchat. :D
Tuesday, met up with the boys in MarinaSq for our school holiday project, Kenny and I was late for like 2hours. Lol but its almost done(: Michelle and Shuling came down t join us. Nicholas and group was also at MarinaSq doing project, Haha. Around 8plus the rest leave. Kenny, Michelle, Shuling KelvinYap and I went t watch movie 'Wanted' Its a fucking nice show :D
Wednesday, stayed at home whole day t rest as im sick.
Same for today, too lazy t go anywhere. But Boredom is killing me!
Saw this lame thingy again but im so freeeeeeeeee that i decide t do it. Haha

1. Why did you cry?
Because im sad/scare or when i pee in my pants. Lol

2. Are you usually the heart breaker or the heartbroken?
The heart break me.

3. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Smoke.

4. Name a quote from the song you are listening to?
Its too late too apologize, its toooooooooooooooooo late...~

5. How is life going for you right now?
Its killing me!

6. Are you keeping a secret from
someone who needs to know the truth?
Boho! yep=/

7. Who was the last person to comment you?
Some bitch.

8. Any Regret(s) in life?
DUH!

9. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
'My ear fucking pain.' t myself.

10. Do you have a best friend?
YEP!

11. Have you ever hated someone, but
ended up being friends with them?
ah ha.

12. What do you think of people who
have sex before marriage?
shoick!

13. Do you own a pair of green pants?
Im not into plants=/

14. Ever had the preferred sex over
when no one was home?
dalah!

15. Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
hell yes.

16. What is your favorite fruit?
Banana.

17. What is the last song to make you cry?
Listen.

18. Is your best friend pretty/handsome?
hell yes. (:

19. Have you ever faint?
yep.

20. Do you trust people easily?
NOPE.

21. When was the last time you cried?
Last week.

22. What's the thing that always gets you through the day?
Friends, Phone, Computer, Television, Foods, Toilet, Bed.

23. Who do you miss?
Someone that got lost on the road.

24. Are you attached?
yes/no ?

25. Whats been through your mind right now?
I wanna eat like siaox.

DALAH! im doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(: Goodbye.

Early in the morning, SEVEN O'CLOCK.

2008-06-29T15:40:00.000-07:00

My eye bag is so big and heavy and my dark circle is fucking bad. My eye bag is so much more expensive then LV/GUCCI or what shit brand bag now!! As the pictures uploaded in friendster, you can seeeeeeeeeeee! Ohmyass, nabei =X Lol.
And and now is 7am in the morning, im still not in my lululand): Reached home about 4am plus till now i cant get t sleeeeeeeep! Met up with Ryan, Jonathanwong in town today. Saw Denise and MeiQi so fucking happy. :D Went t P and wtf its so damn boring went in less than 1hour i run out, haha, happy t see Jervic and some peoples down there. hoho. Kenny msg me and i met up with him t his house nearby for my fav RotiJohn! Damn nice. Chitchated, smoke-ed and kinda emo talk. Then went back t maxwell together with Kenny, talktalktalk. Leave at around 3plus with Jervic and Arron. Thanks!(: And im so sorry t leave Ryan. Hahaha. SorrySorrySorry X1000000000000000000000000000000. =/
Tmrw Sex and the city again with Cherry then meeting DeniseBaoBei, MeiQi, Ryan, WongWong and peoples t St.James! Woooots!
I gonna try and get some sleeeeeep now. Can anyone sing me lulubye? Goodnight!(:

When baby is away, in BEND-COCK):

2008-06-28T23:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday. Meet up with Kenny, Tonglee, YiXiang and KelvinYap t do our school project but in the end Kenny cant bring his laptop out. So we slacked and walk ard MarinaSq instead =/ Next Monday we're meeting out t do project again.
After that, the boys leave. Kenny and I went t buy donuts and t bugis street bus stop t meet up with Nicholas, Naomi and Sammy. Haha. Went t Naomi house t bitch and about ghost stuffs. =X LiKuan and YouSheng came too then they start playing Mahjong. But Nicholas, Sammy and I just watch tv and fool ard. Lol.
Went home around 11plus and i miss my last train): so i took cab home. At night im so scare that i cant get t sleep, luckily Cherry called me and we talk on the phone till i feel like sleeping. Thanks girl(:
Awwwwwww, Baby i miss you like crazy! Fuck, faster come back):

ps; I gonna upload photos in friendster! :D

Back from Aloha!

2008-06-26T08:26:00.000-07:00

Went t class chalet on Monday(: Cherry waited for me at Pasir Ris, White Sand and she bought me there. Not many peoples was there when i reached. Then they start BBQ-ing :D im so freaking hungry. At night went jacuzzi with Cherry and Kenny, went back t eateateat again and sleep for only 2hrs. =/
Tuesday, went swimming! :D Went back t chalet and lots of peoples came(: Slack& eat then BBQ again. Went jacuzzi again with Kenny, Nicholas, Cherry & Sijun at night after that went back t chalet. Afew hours later its the trip t RedHouse and Pasir Ris Park- Swan! =/ I'll never ever forget about this trip, its scare the shit out of me and i swear i'll never ever go t such places. LOL. 18peoples went and ofcus 18 came back, any extra? IDK! =I Hahaha. Went back home at 6am as there was no room t sleep.
Reached home about 8am sleep till 430pm. Went out t meet baby for movie ' You Dont Mess with Zohan. ' nice movie! (: Reached home about 10pm and i sleeeeeeep again(:
After more than 15hours of sleep, wokeup and waited for baby t come over. Baby went home around 9plus and Boho! my dad came back home and i cut hair for him! anyhow cut luh=X And i cut my own finger too): my virgin gone. Anw, im blogging now :D

The class chalet was fun better then rotting at home. Haha. I still love my classmates! Got t know more about them during the chalet and ofcus theres some arshole(:

ps; too lazy t upload pictures but soon okay? Lol. Goodnight.

Idk whats going on.

2008-06-23T23:47:00.000-07:00

Promises? My foot. I totally agree with your statement. I just cant accept it even thou its a small matter. Im very sensitive or maybe should i say you're insensitive? Sigh.
For the time being, leave me alone. Im sorry, idk what i want anymore. Better off alone

Random of love.

2008-06-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

Boho, i just change my blogskin t this really simple skins. Nice? :D School holiday are still going fine.
Wednesday, met up with Jonathanwong and eugene for dinner(:
Thursday, went out with Baby and friends.
Friday, met up with Denise Baobei, Belle, WeiYi and Baby t town. Had so much fun(:
Yesterday, baby came over, stayed at home.
Today, went for breakfast with dad and later going t meet Nicholas at tamPENIS then t Kenny working place t pass them things. Going t meet baby at night, maybe going ~~St.James~~ again. (:

Monday t Wednesday is our Hair-Fashion-Design class chalet, excited? The only reason im going is because i can be free from my dad 3days, 2night and ofcus my classmates! (: Anw, i know the chalet gonna be kinda boring but its much more better than staying at home rotting. Im so lazy t blog and i got 100000000000000000000000000 of pictures t upload but im too fucking lazy t do all this shit, im so lazy even t reply t tags=/ Btw, Relink and new link - LINKED!(:
Sorry & Byebye!

ps; Im so glad that nothing happened t you, all the tears is worth it<3

emo

2008-06-22T11:34:00.000-07:00

Good Morning? ):
its already 5am! and i just get t sleep. Im worrying about something, feeling so uneasy and all the fucking shit. Maybe i did the very wrong move in the first place? Tsk. Its killing me, arshole!
Anw, im going for the class chalet for the whole 3days cause i dont wna think about anything for that very moment, just wanna have some so called fun.
Don't mess with Zohan! anyone?

I;ll be there.

2008-06-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is your important day.
I pray for nothing gotta happen, i know you will be allright. No matter what I'll be there for you(:
Im so damn fucking worry for you! ): Tskkkkkkkkk.

p/s: Its my first time crying together with someone, it broke my heart.

Cute

2008-06-17T09:23:00.000-07:00

I miss you, till my leg gonna break. So Kweeeeeeeeek! (:

Chu

2008-06-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

Boho, my phone line is totally being cut offfffff. No free incoming call, no msg, no nothing. Hahaa, its time to play MIA. (: Kidding. No worries, i getting new no. tmrw then i'll inform you guys again.
I enjoyed so much yesterday!
16/06, my life is filled with colours and colourssssssss ;D

Fun?

2008-06-14T10:18:00.001-07:00

Just came back home from Sebas Ng Birthday celebration, together with Kenny and Nicholas. (: Its kinda fun and lots of peoples was there. Haha. Actually planned not to go back home but still i did and now im all alone at home, cant get t sleep! Fuck. Happy Belated Birthday!(:
So many dumbfuck things happened today and i wont be working for Singtel anymore, fuck that fugly bimbo. But i know its not anyones' fault and Michelle its totally not your fault, dont blame yourself(: Anyway things is solved and im fucking broke):
Im jobless, no school, no nothing. This is killing me, i think i gonna sleep my 3weeks of holiday away~ Tomorrow going over to Cherry's place to swim and i love her cooking so so much! haha, she can be a really good housewife:D maybe St.James at night?
Goodnight.

When friday fuck thirteeeeeen.

2008-06-13T09:22:00.000-07:00

Was ten mins late for the wash and blowjob test. Wohlala and i got no time to actually blow the hair dry, inside of the hair was good but not outside, see? I suck at blowjob-ing the hair ofcus. Ha, funny(: After test run here and there, now i left with no fucking cents, pathetic. No matter what i enjoy my day so much with Kenny, Nicholas, Michelle, Cherry and Shuling thou im not feeling good inside, out. Bad thingy always happens when good ones is happening around, err im not gonna mention any fmotion things here. Because im going to enjoy my 3 fucking week of school holiday, i hope i can(:
Im so happy for my Baobei Denise! Hahah. And Jervic i'll miss you! :D
& that some fucker gonna get his ass kicked t actually bitch behind our back, some good people we actually know as a classmate(:
Tomorrow will be fun, i guess? Goodnight.

p.s: Boom this blog with pictures and pictures soon.

After 3months.

2008-06-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

~~Should i just tell you the truth? Its killing me. Fuck~~

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Wash and blowjob test on friday! Im so dead.
And its gonna be our holiday for fucking 3weeks, woooos!
Im having gastric rightnow, its fucking pain! Byebye. Wtf

Mei Qi

2008-06-09T05:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday girl! (:
Sorry i cant sms you and stuffs, just wanna wish you over here.
Xoxo!
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you totally turn me off,
hope your fucking eyes drop out(:

Hidden mother loser.

2008-06-08T08:59:00.000-07:00

I'll never forget that simple feeling, never ever(: and that minutes can seriously kills me, im so damn fucking disappointed. Should i be glad or upset? Wtf.
After all, im still a loser. I just cant do it, again i failed. Im so mother-loser ): How i really really wish you will actually realize one day.

p/s: update soon.
Oh well, IF you simply thought that im talking about you. please, maybe you should go for more facial so your skin wont actually get so thick. Like hello? Why should i be actually bitching about you unless you're admitting yourself. Haha, this crook world is getting so well and funny. Come on lah kids, please fucking grow up and brush your teeth, like this whole crook of fucking circle only both of you're getting attach. And that someone love to be rubbish collector. Boho. Look whose talking now, do you wanna be the kettle or the pot? Pukes. You should be so fucking dumb to actually believe in this you and your forever. Should i colour it for you? 'FOREVER' . Nice? Ha, arshole.

Damn Singtel.

2008-06-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

I'm fucking working tmrw for every Saturday and Sunday for this one whole month, June. As so lil' lil' twit outside Seven-Eleven selling some bull-the-shit card. So people, please fucking call me anytime you want to chat with me t spend my fucking working days away and i can get easy money :D and i cant fucking call out t people, only free incoming call. ): Call, call, call. Ring Ring Ring, just ring me please? (: Lol.

I think i had already moved on, so finally. No longer a mother-loser! I'm still trying to move on now, i'm so trying my fucking best and i'm kinda disappointed in you sometime. :l
And dont know for what fuck reason, i cried during practical in hair lab today, I just feel like crying. What-the-fuck.

Anw, I gonna have fun tmrw no matter what! (: Fucking happy working.
Goodnight.

p/s: Oh wait, I just realize something. Some dumbo freak kids just got attached t some arshole. Boho, claps! Congraz. Hope you fucking dont get dump again. Hahahahaaaaa. Puke, i think i should give the statement above a square. ( Two jackass. ) Oh-my-fucking-god, why am i so evil? Cause i hate fugly jerk like you, dumb twit(:

Let it go.

2008-06-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

At least i know im trying now to let go, at least im trying than i never even try to. Get it? Im learning to let go, seriously i find myself irritating sometime maybe you 'hd never notice i done lots of things just for you. Whatever it is, im fucking trying now.
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School days have been really bad and nasty. Im so speechless and sad for the adults action and speak. Class HA is seriously packed with morons and asshole losers. What-the-fuckies-fuck.
In working life, esp in fashion line you simply need to be bitchy before someone ever eat you up and stab you right from the back. Thats why, bitching is the way of life now. Even if you dontknow how t, thats a need to learn. Words can kills everyone. Ethics is extremely bull-the-fucking-shit.
I seriously dont have the mood t bitch and say some stupid nonsense about some fuckietards. Im so damn bloody mood less-nessssss, wait and i'll just fucking bang you. I really got no fucking mood t go school nowdays and also for the lame stupid class chalet during the june holiday, just fuck it.

i just kinda highlighted my hair, which cant really be seem. Will update again, byeeeeeeeeee.

Bomb the hole.

2008-06-01T12:00:00.000-07:00

Actually wanted to post up everything as i got all the pictures with me already but dont know why the fuck im feeling emo once i wake up. And when im trying to talk to that someone t blablabla, i find myself dumb and i got that kinda lit' lil' that lil' bit of disappointment feeling, wtf. So now im a joke, what the heaven. Seriously i fucking hate people being sarcastic, maybe its just the wrong time or maybe im small gas? Whatever.

I enjoyed ytdy night alot(: going pack my room now, its fuck mess-ies. Byebye.

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2008-06-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

Everything shall be kept within, i just need you to be there. I hope so. . . but you're missing always, missed. And i feel like in action too ):

Tan YongKang

2008-05-31T22:17:00.000-07:00

Happy 18th Birthday! <3

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~~I fucking hate that cheebye attitude. ROAR! knn~~ Sorry =I

Typical Bitches

2008-05-29T07:20:00.000-07:00

What-the-fuck with that bitch, seriously you just a suckie asshole. puie. Your mouth is seriously as big as your asshole thats why you love t bitch and gossip around like some freak bimbo aunties at the market. You can teach the whole fucking world not to gossip and bitch but you yourself are doing it front and back of us, how nice can you get. And fucking dont anyhow accuse someone before you know the truth. Maybe you're just thinking too highly of yourself that we are actually bitching about you, bloody thick skin. Like we even bother to do so, who-the-fuck are you to us? Jackass only. I think you should just stab yourself with your super-duper-fucking damn expensive scissors to stab into your own heart, pea-brain, asshole, balls and dick. :D Then you can die so beautifully in the whole fucking world of your bitches circle(:
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Okay i hd' enough. (:
I NEED L O V E! Gimme Gimme!
& FRIENDSHIP CONQUER ALL BULLSHIT (: Smuack!

Sorry.

2008-05-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

Sorry that i broken that lil' promise, knowing what i mean?
Happy 15th Birthday.

p/s: Lots of pictures to post up soon, had a great day. (: Tata!
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Kenny, THANKS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO MANY! Haha.
For helping me find those live models. :DDDD Loves!

Long-lost.

2008-05-26T04:17:00.000-07:00

The great emptiness within me, im feeling so lost and something really seems to be missing inside me, my blank heart.
I know this kind of thingy sure gonna happens some of this days but i never realize things will happen so fast before even i could wake up. Pretending and hide is all i can. My rules is way, too far away broken in and out side. Im falling deeper and deeper.
Who can gimme the love, that plenty of sweet love? I want it from you but im just being too dumb or something. Hearing what you said just disappoint and hurts me so much instead of what im showing outside to you. I hd' done so much things to be there for you always but it really seem nothing, im useless. Because you will never realize what im feeling and doing for you.

Went to Tampines after school, Michelle accidentally slapped me hard on my face and i dontknow why i just cried out, wth. Its not your fault Michelle, no worries(: I love you always, ahah. But i just got the urge to let my feeling out just that alil' so sorry to shock you peoples.

Anw, phone line being cut off. I can't reply sms-es and cant call out, anything just ring me, free incoming call. Maybe its just a good time for me to wake up and know what i actually wants, which is you and i know it can never ever happen.
And Kenny cheerup allright, hope you're fine. (: We will be there for you, lets emo together. ):

I need that plenty of love,
to fill me up inside, that missed feeling is killing me seriously.

GREAT Great fun.

2008-05-25T00:42:00.000-07:00

Had so much fun this week end(:
Bbq over at Cherry's place, almost half of the class went over. Went with Kenny, reach there around 8plus. Once we reach there, everyone start playing water and pushing peoples into the pool =/ everyone is all wet. After eating some foods, we went swimming, singing and talking in the pool(: Bathe and went back to Cherry's house. While the rest is sleeping, Kenny and i went down to emo-talk. ): Slept at around 2-3am and i cried! Wtf. But thanks Kenny(: dont emo allright!
Next day, woke up around 9plus 10am, took bus to WhiteSand and had dessert with the rest while waiting for Kenny's cousin to come and we(Kenny, 's cousin, Jianming and I) went suntan at downtown but the sun was so small and we 're only alit' tanned): swim awhile and we go back home(:
Sleep for an hour plus, went out to meet Kenny, Nicholas and Jianming. Had lot and lotsa fun, cant image that we actually danced for 4hrs, wth first time. =/ Head to Mac t have breakfast and we shared cab home. Reach home around 6plus am.
Really hd' so so so much fun ytdy night. Its a unforgettable day. Thanks guys! We will go again (:
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PICTURES!

Shop&Save. I'm 19! not 14 ): lol

Michelle's umbrella
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At Cherry's place.

Kenny!!!! (:

Jianming, Me, Kenny, Yixiang and KelvinYap, (:

Kenny! This is what happened when you 're the last one to wakeup. Lol, Yixiang done it ;l

Kenny, Michelle and I got this same phone-thingy.
We got the same 'K' earing too :DDD
Michelle got the 'M' and Jianming got the 'J'. (:
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SunTan!

Me(:

Kennyyyyy! (:

The 3 of us(:
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JianMing(:

Nicholas(:

Kenny!(:
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This gonna be my best best weekend ever. & TGIS! :DD
LOVES, XOXO!

fookie day :D

2008-05-23T02:43:00.000-07:00

Lessons was damn fun today, shampoo while customer is sitting down(: cool right? came back home after eating and i slept so so long while waiting for the others. =/
Class Bbq later and im staying over with my lovely classmates! :D Im still waiting for Kenny to get ready.
& David Cook wins! Wtf. Nevermind i still love DAVID ARCHULETA! Fook the COOK! =/

Went to Shop&Save ytd after school with lots of people to grad foods and stuffs, we seem like playing instead of shopping. Haha, Kenny and Nicholes esp. Post up photo soon(:
Takecareee, smuack.

Fuck the why

2008-05-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

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I just can't find that someone to talk to,
how nice.

I broke my own rules.

2008-05-21T04:34:00.000-07:00

I know rules are meant to be broken but theres this little rule of myself that i dont wish to break it. I think i broken it already which i dont wish too ): Peoples who knows me should actually know what i am talking about.
Been hiding this so damn badly, i seriously need to wake up before its too late anyway its already kinda late. =/ Its going worse and worsen, i dontwant to break that rule of mine.
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Why love always end in a cruel way, no one can actually answer that fucking qns. Maybe i should say, why love start and also end in a cruel way. We 're always the one being cruel indeed. I'll wake up, wake up and just trying my fucking best to wake up and end every single things but i think i'll fail again as usual, im always a fucking loser.

♥I long for you every now and then, seriously im so fucking dead.
Seeing that words from you, simply melt me so much.

Back to school (:

2008-05-20T07:39:00.001-07:00

Monday, 19May.
Meet Jervic and Junhao at bugis for dinner, bought a pair of white shoes 29.90$. :D Had dinner at Breako, then acc jh to play some games and took train home. Update with eachothers and stuffs, feel so great to see them, misses! (:
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Today, went t school, lessons was really fun and i got my PSP! :DDD Pe was cancel so we went for movie at TamPENIS with Kenny, Michelle and Cherry. ' Accuracy Of Death. ' first part was kinda boring but in the end the show was very nice, i like! Waited for Kelvinyap, Tonglee and Szeyin to meet us and had dinner at BurgerKing. Took train home with Yap and Kenny(:

I'hv a new girlfriend again, so flirt ass. =X TWITIE!

She cost me 40.50$ see, she 's so fucking pretty compare to TWIT. (:

Homework that i'hv done! I tied this for an hour plus, Chiox right?! Haha.

Kenny and Michelle. (: LOVES! Taken in class.
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Tomorrow gonna have this president from some wulu country to visit our school and we need to put on an act to show them how we wash/cut hair in our school hair lab, lame ass.

Ministry Of Hairspa Salon suck! Fucking asshole. My working paid for that one day should be 55$ in the end they only pay me 25$, Jackass! The reason they give, was because that day i work the business was bad got very few customers. Like my fucking fault and give me lesser paid, blame yourself then that you 'hd so that fucking little customer you got instead of dragging us into your fucking situation, you're spoiling your own salon 's name. If you want more customers then make your fame high. Don't give lesser pay to peoples because of your own fucking fault. LOSER! You suck tits' (:

Okay, im done :D
Goodnight.

DENISE.

2008-05-19T12:56:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU! so so fucking much, Denise(:
LOVE.

Days with loved classmates.

2008-05-19T01:34:00.000-07:00

11May, Sunday.
Happy Mother s' Day. Instead of celebrating mommie days, my dad, younger brother and i went to my sister school NAFA to visit my sister's project and stuffs. After eating, met Tonglee and Kelvinyap at Boonlay and got their project done. Met Kenny at HabourFront and the rest outside cine. Watch this show ' What Happens In Vegas. ' Is a really really nice show(: Skip the detail, met Szeyin and the rest of us, Kenny, Nicholes, Jonathan, Yousheng and i went to this pub where Szeyin used to work in for a drink. Took cab with Kenny and home!

My sister & brother(:

My sister print me onto her work ' Death note/money ' and she make me so fat!
Drinking with classmates(:

I love that day! & i totally forgotten everyday about Monday. Lol.
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17May, Saturday.
Went to Ministry Of Hair Salon to work as a part time. Suppose to work Sat and Sun but its really suckie so i decided to stop going on Sunday. ;P The work was kinda slack but i really hate that fucking bitch over there. Lots of chemical on my hand and dontknow how many head i keep washing and washing. The whole fucking days got only about 4 to 5 customers, the rest of the time me and Nicholes keep gossipe and bitching, took photos here and there. Haha, She suck!

The Salon was really huge. Thou, there may be only 4-5 customers but they can earn more than 600$ already, so easy money. Haha

Nicholes! (:
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18May, Sunday.
Stayied at home till 6plus, suppose to meet Kenny and Michelle at The Cathey for movie. Kenny got something on last mins so me and Michelle went for the movie instead. ' Made Of Honour ' I love this show!! :D After movie, Kenny came and we went to Kbox to sing till 6am in the morning. And im actually dumb to tears when singing because of that fucking song. it remind me of you. Jackass! Reach home about 7am and sleeeeeeeep! I love this day so so much, thanks Kenny and Michelle for the day :D Love!

Michelle and Kenny :DD
Kenny sleeping like a small boy. Haha, he is too tired. =/
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Okay, some candid shot! (:

Inside Kbox.

Kenny(:

My Bestie :D

Our fav IceCreams!

Cherry!

Class ahboy and kenny.

Tonglee and his long fringe

MICHELLE! :D

Group work.

F U C K! its me(:

I just simply love my classmates so much :DD
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XOXO!

p/s: getting my psp tmrw! and fuck, i haven't done my hmwrk. =/

I'm so wrong.

2008-05-18T23:25:00.000-07:00

Work was still okay, will update again. Just blogging about my feeling.

Yesterday had lots of fun, met Kenny, Daryl and his friends in town together with Nicholes after work. Suppose to go for movie ' Made Of Honour ' but seat was full so we went to P instead. I really hate going back that place and i 'hd already stop going there for 2-3months. Went to P and T, gonna skip the detail shit.
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I hate going there and i know definitely you will be there. Seeing you make me recall every little things and im missing you even more but why wtf im missing you for? The things we do, said, went and even the shit we quarreled, every single things about you just come back. Tears went i got home till i fell asleep and i just cant find that someone to talk t, after so long im still sucha fucking loser. You used to be my everything but now we prefer each other to be nothing, my hiding feeling had already reached to the very fucking max.

Lots of peoples and bitches is there ytdy, saw lots of peoples and im happy to see them cause i miss them hell lot. Esp, Fiona, Jireh and Egbert. Leave at about oneplus cause of curfew, i dont wanna leave and i wanted to hug you so damn much and cry all my feeling out but i just cant do it, Sighs. I hate you as a party-animal.
Thanks Kenny, Nicholes, Daryl and some peoples for the day.
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Missing you is a mistake.
Falling for you is even worse.
Everything is just too wrong.

Fuck the upset :D

2008-05-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

I'm not gonna let those shitty-little-freaky thingy upset me and knock me off and im gonna so damn fine. (:

Today lessons ends at around 2plus when it suppose to end at 1pm, wash wash wash Michelle 's hair and blow blow blow job dummy head, Twit. Had lunch at cafe1 after that then vivo! With Kenny, Raphaelle, Kelvinyap, Tonglee, Cherry, Nicholes, Gerald, SiJun and Yousheng. Head to topman once reached and shopping! Bought myself a white printed tees at 25.20$ after staff discount, its been kinda long ever since i buy myself something :D Then to smoke and slack, im damn temped to start the stick again after so long but Raphaelle gonna shout at me like dontknow what. Lol. Gerald piggy-back me :D The rest leave, left only raph, yap, cherry and i, we went to Long John Silver for dinner. Up to the top open space to jokes and bitch around for an hour plus, reached home around ten. Jaddd!

Tomorrow, i gonna work after so long since i work! Hohohoho. Im working at this Salon of Nicholes' friends' friends' friends' friends' friends' dontknow how long is the link but i think is only friend's friends. Lol at the somewhere fucking Rochor Road(: Hope i can wash hair, i love to be a shampoo-boy. Haha and the paid was kinda great.
Kelvinyap, selling his PSP at this damn fucking cheap price of 100$ with two pack of cig! Cheap right?! Thanks so damn damn hell much. Haha. I can save lots and use the rest of the money for shopping again :D

XO XO much! tata.

Proven by time.

2008-05-15T05:18:00.000-07:00

Time prove everything, all sort of little nonsense. Drift apart. What the fuck am i thinking and missing you so much when you dont even gimme a damn. Replying msges from you its like taking years and i find myself fucking irritating. I should really really just let you go, so what if i care and concern so much about you but i just feel like a fucking fucktard to you.

Cairong agreed to be my live model, for wash/blow test on June. Woooh, thanks bitch. :D

Anyway, its my very first time washing a super long hair, Michelle.
Hard to handle but fun(: i 'hd enjoyed a lot. Vivo tmrw!

Swan

2008-05-13T04:27:00.000-07:00

Swimming in school was so great! :D with Henry, Stanford , Sijun and Yiwen. With some other classes. The swimming lesson was kind lame but i like it, haha. After that meet Michelle, Raphaelle, Tonglee, Kelvinyap, Yixiang and Yousheng at cafet1 to eat, then took bus to mrt station and home! (:

Know some very shocking secret. =/

ps: Gonna postup Sunday and Monday outing & i copied few days back post back to this blog. (:

Idk.

2008-05-12T07:13:00.000-07:00

Just shifted my 2yrs blog due to some problems, sigh. And im feeling kinda depress, i just deleted all my past post and memories, i wanna forget every single shit of unpleasant moment. Just gonna post a short ones now.

I myself dontknow why im missing you, like wtf. I tears today after coming back from school, idk why too. I seriously dontknow whats going wrong inside me and what for i keep holding on everything when im suppose to let in go in the first place. Hiding this feeling can just kill and hurts me so so badly. My heart is filled with sorrows. ):

Anyway, peoples please relink. Thanks(:

p/s: I'm feeling a serious jealousy.

Creams Ice

2008-05-10T04:26:00.000-07:00

I loves this pictures, so colourful and seem tasty. Haha! (:
ICE CREAM! Yump!

Taken from binz1989.bs.

Saturday Blues.

2008-05-10T04:25:00.000-07:00

Saturday should be a outing day for everyone to enjoys and stuffs but my outing was cancelled due to some reason. Im lazy to go out with anyone else also, so im staying at home and i just got my mini project done! :D

Wokeup around 12plus 1pm and straight away i do my mini project. Cherry is editing now(: Im fuck boring now, i dontknow what to do to occupy myself, Can someone help! Haha. I dontwant to get emo also ): Im lazy and moodless for everything. Boredom is killing me!

Hurt kelvin : Your desires could be influencing your behavior a little too apparently. If everyone knows your deepest want, it is not a secret anymore and may be further out of reach than before you started your ill-advised pursuit.

2008-05-09T04:38:00.000-07:00

29April2008.
Meet Denise-baobei at PasirRis after school. Slacked at Hong Kong Cafe and head over to Downtown East after that. Was kinda boring, so we walk over to Pasir Ris Park had a very long heart-to-heart talk(: and settle our dinner at Downtown. Cabbed home.

30April2008.
Met Kenny after his work and we head to Tonglee 's house to join the other classmates over at his house(: I loved that day, alots of people was there and we had lots of fun. :D Stay over there till the next day around 8am plus.

At Tonglee house(:

1May2008.
LabourDay! Head to Jonathanwong house straight after leaving Tonglee house. Slept till around 12plus pm, accompany wongwong to have his hair cut then to town to meet Kiro. And i leave halfway to meet Denise for her breaktime and went home after that.

2May2008.
Went for eyes checkup with mommy and cleared all the stupid bill. 300$! fuck. Then to town meet up with Denise, Herman, Xinjia and Shipei. Dinner at Mosburger, shop here and there Those rich guys buy so much things! Jealousy. Lol. Slacked at Starbuck and home(: Thanks peoples for cheering me up. :D

Sorry, I still do kinda hate you.

4May2008.
Went out to town with, Kenny, Raphaelle, Yixiang, Cherry and Kelvinyap. Watch 'Over her dead body.' Its a freaking nice show! I love it(: And because of you people, i got better instead of feeling Emo. Thanks! (:

5May2008.
School! Went to Yishun with almost half of class for movie. Haha but Tonglee only realised that he mixedup the time slot with others movie ==" so went LongJohn for dinner and we went Safra. The guys play pool and the rest of us slacked inside the room, wanted to sing but too exp. Sebas Ng came and most of them leave. The rest of us went walking around Northpoint, slacked and took train home with Kenny.

6May2008.
Went VivoCity after school with Kelvinyap and Kenny. They keep shopping& shopping, was shopping in Topman for an hour plus. ==" Went home earlier cause of fucking curfew! Haha(:

7May2008.
Had breakfast with Raphaelle, Michelle, Kenny, Kelvinyap, Tonglee and Yixiang then head to school. Went to TamPENIS to walk around after school(:

8May2008.
Finally, we start cutting hair! Was super shoick and fun. Haha. But we're learning how to cut Onelenght cut which is straight line, kinda hard and difficult but i never give up! My dummy Twit become like China doll, cause i keep cutting and cutting become like fucking short. LOL (: Then to Tampines again after school to slack and have dinner(:

My lovely and cute classmates! ((:

9May2008.
Finally learned all things about wash hair and i love to help peoples wash hair. Haha, shampoo boy! ((: Went to Orchard after school with Kenny, Nichole , Yiwen and Yousheng. Found out one stupid secret! LOL. Shop around until 4plus and the rest leave, left only me and Nichole. Took train together and i went to meet Denise Baobei for dinner as swimming outing was cancel due to something! =/ She pull me to trim my eye brown! Fucking pain, tears keep dropping. Haha. Shop around and went home(:

Michelle, SiJun and Raphaelle :D

Nichole, Tonglee and Raphaelle(:

Thats about it! (((: Im looking forward to tmrw outing! :D And i gonna buy PSP within this few days! woooots! & I love this song!

p/s: Im kinda missing some peoples which i shouldn't be. But i feel so good leaving the circle(:
Thanks for peoples who're always there and care for me. LOVE! :D